The memories play,
sometimes on repeat.
Depending on the day,
they'll sweep me off my feet.
I think of you,
your laugh, your smile,
What you would do
to make me feel worth while.
I drive the streets alone,
wondering what you'd say
If these streets lead me home,
and you'd be there today.
Would you be proud
of all that I've done?
Would you cheer so loud
for all the battles I've won?
How would you respond
When I tell you of my life?
Would it make you fond,
and tell Lucas he has a good wife?
What jokes would you make
that would have me roll my eyes?
What drives would we take,
if we never had to say goodbye?
What games would you play
with my two girls,
and my son on the way?
How would the world
be so different today..
If you were still here,
sitting next to me,
Telling me all the stories
and things that could be?
You said to never give up,
not on my dreams,
not on my wants,
and not on my needs.
You taught me to love.
You taught me to be proud.
You taught me to care,
But the silence has become loud.
I yearn to hear what you think,
What you would really say.
I hurt to hear your words:
It'll be ok.
The memories have held me,
They've gotten me through now.
But now I can't help but wonder:
Would life be better somehow
If you were here?
If you had gotten to stay?
Maybe everything
wouldn't be this way.
I miss you more
With every day that passes.
I still think of you
Each time I clean my glasses.
I'll always wish you could be
Right here, right now,
Laughing and sitting with me.
Oh how I long
For my daughters to know
Just how incredibly strong
And wonderful you are.
I'll tell them stories,
I'll show them pictures,
But nothing compares
To having a hug a bug
Whose warmth could melt any winter.
I'll watch the sunsets
And wonder where you are.
I'll be kind and loving,
And hope you're not far.
I hope you can see me now,
And I know it wasn't the end.
I'll keep talking to you somehow,
And I can't wait
Until we meet again.
-Allison S. Dahl
