Wednesday, September 19, 2012

A Change of Tides

This time in my life is proving to be nothing but more and more interesting/intense. Life has thrown all sorts of curve balls and I don't know the best way to handle them, except for one at a time. So I'm going to move back to Idaho as soon as work will let me. I decided I didn't get quite enough time with the good old mom and dad, so I'll take this time to be with them. I wanted to wait until November, but alas, now I want to go as soon as I can.

I used to love my job. Correction, I still do, just a little less now. I'm sure every work place has a similar situation. I just think that I'm the center of the rumor mill and I'm not a fan. To top it off, a close friend kind of set me to the curb and that made it even more fun. Now, why am I posting about this on my blog? Well, I always like to write about my life lessons as I'm learning them. This friend and I have an interesting relationship. He is someone who understands me on a level that I'm not sure even I get. So when he does something to make me mad, it's worse than your average Joe. What I've learned from all this is that people are going to be people. Don't give them more credit. I know that sounds harsh, but no one is perfect. I think for the longest time I expected this close friend to be perfect. I expected him to be everything I thought him to be. And when he wasn't, I was the only one left disappointed.

I know this may seem harsher than my previous posts, but I'm all about honesty. I'm only twenty and I feel like I know things that some of my thirty year old friends are still trying to piece together. I know that makes me sound like I'm conceited, but aren't we all at this age? This month has been one of the most trying ones of my life, and I've found that there are few that are actually here for me. Which is why I have to remember people will always be people. If they weren't, then we wouldn't be here.

I have few friends like I mentioned that have seen me through most of what I'm going through. A lot of it I need to do on my own, such is life, but the friends I have still try. One of those is Jelena Nikolic. Her and I have quite the friendship. It's definitely one of the more unique ones I've ever had. One minute we are at each other's throats, then the next we are holding each other crying. She has seen me through my darkest times. Whether it be an ex boyfriend, a mean girl, or some stupid person from work, she always has my back. Even though we get fiesty with each other sometimes, she's always there for me. And I'm there for her too. I've never cried with a friend before until Jelena. Her and I can talk about anything. She probably knows more about my life than some of my sisters. Sad, right? Haha. She's definitely been the best friend I've needed in my life right now. Our fights never last more than a day. I don't know where I'd be without that woman. She has seen me through so much and continues to help me through this terrible time.

When I say terrible time, I'm mainly referring to right now. I just had a bad day and really...in the grand scheme of things..my life is quite fantastic. Yes it's going where I never expected it to, but I'm enjoying the surprises.

Well, I thank you for your time. I hope you gained some insight and you enjoyed my blog! Cheerio!

Allison S. De Arton

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